With my new found knowledge of knowing my body type and understanding exactly how I was able to fit into things, was also a new found confidence of how I felt about myself. For a few days, I have been walking around holding myself a little straighter and feeling comfortable in my body. This is definitely a new and strange sensation for me, and definitely is a big plus in understanding who I am. Actually, my changed ideal about who I am has immediately attracted attention, with many asking if I have changed my hair or style.
So I thought I had finally approached the promise of feeling better about myself.
Everything was going great with my new understanding of fashion and how I could fit into this world, until I decided that it was time to go back and to try to fit into some new fashions. I was so certain that now I could move out of my frump and into clothes that allowed me to look my best. So, I went back to the store I had run out of a few weeks ago to try again.
This time, I decided to take a different approach to my fashion, while repeating what the best body type styles fit. I started to work my way into the dress room to find my new found confidence in some different clothes. But this strange thing started happening.
As I tried to fit into my new style, my self confidence started going out of the window. I was finding that the clothes would either not fit right or wouldn’t bring out my best body style. Everything that I tried on was a “no, that doesn’t look right” statement that followed close behind. Then a careful analysis of how it brought out my middle or how it made my shoulders look to big or my hips too wide. So once again, I walked back out of the store empty handed, with the need to find some extra expertise.
What I realized was that, the body type that I had built up inside of my head didn’t have the realistic expectations that followed with who I really was. On the other side, I had believed that I had a certain figure, which didn’t include the reality of what fit into my personal look. The confidence that I had built was not one that was about my personal image, but instead the ideal body type that most look at to get the right fit.
Because of this particular ideal, I have decided that my confidence is going to need to change styles as well. Accepting my body shape not only by understanding what type I am, but also accepting the different areas of myself that have a “personal look” is now a priority.
With that in mind, I’m going back to the Become Stylish program to find more assistance in defining not only my body type, but also the things about myself that work for me - or maybe against me. I’ve realized that now, it’s time for me to build an inner style as well.
Barrett
