My new found path of taking the time to exercise, take care of my health and to get fashionable tips so I can feel better about myself are leading to new thought processes and ideas that are taking place both internally and externally.
As I struggle through the new habits and new ways of trying to take care of myself I’m realizing two things.
1. I have a lot of old ideas about who I am that are beginning to show up. These are ideas that I’ve formed into habits, such as - why would I want to exercise, why would you think about yourself like you are beautiful, etc. I’ve noticed that my thought forms for a lack of self - confidence try to kick in every single time I’m trying to accumulate a new look or style.
2. My self - confidence is trying to fight into new ways of thinking. As I make changes externally, I realize that it is the last step towards building my self up internally. The more I go to the gym, for instance, the more the bad habits and thought patterns disappear. The more I go to the store to buy good things, the more my self - confidence is able to fight off the bad thought forms. And, the more I take time to find fashions that I love, the more I feel like I can walk with my head held high.
I’m learning, through my couple of weeks of trying to reform myself, that it is not the outside ideals that is causing me to shape how I look. It begins with what is going on in my head and which thought form about myself wins. For the first time, I’m beginning to understand what building your own self - portrait and body image means. Sometimes it is the old habits and thoughts that I’m not good enough to fit into a certain clothing, while others it comes from the reward of doing something differently, going to the gym or fighting through the old behaviors.
I think that confidence with how we look and feel about ourselves is one that is sometimes thrown around like it is either something we are or aren’t. As a matter of fact, having self - confidence and an image that is positive is something that I’m learning to achieve by creating my own image and by believing in who I really am, instead of having an alternative image about myself.
For instance, when I found out about my body shape, something in my head triggered that built a new habit of self - confidence, where I could say that I was something. The same thing is happening as I’m working towards losing weight and building up my image. I’m realizing that, as I do this, it is easier for the weight to come off and simpler for me to walk with my head held high.
Through the Become Stylish program, I’m learning that the reflection of confidence we show through our image is simply what we think. At this point in my journey, I’ve become aware of how what I am thinking is going to directly influence what I decide to do with my fashion, habits and daily rituals - or desire to change them.
Barrett
